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The word can bring fear to the heart of the undecided. To overthink and create a myriad of imaginary scenarios, based upon the musings of the fearful mind.
There is a subtly difference between the feelings of doubt, and the intuitive voice, speaking from within. Usually doubt begins when we let go of the capacity to believe in our worth to live up to what is being laid before us in the moment.
Intuition that tells us to tread lightly, does not base it’s concern through a projected created reality that comes from false evidence appearing real (FEAR).
I certainly live with doubt, and again I know that my doubts are do to my continued work on my place and worth in the world. Everyday I must choose the strength of the knowledge that no one is above me, and no one is below me. That I have everything I need to succeed in the face of my fears…
Intuition does not create imaginations of peril. It quietly asks, “Is this really for you?”
The quest is to learn the language of my doubt, and intuition enough to know the difference.
Blessings, Love & Light to you and those you hold dear…
So I bought a new car… Yes, I’m half a century old and it is a sports car. After telling my son he stated he wanted to call it my mid-life crisis. I told him that was fine and we moved on. But it has been sitting with me for days.
A few years ago both my children basically moved away to start their own lives. It was a major event in my world, where we had daily interactions, they be came much less frequent. I went into a self searching mode for a few months, asking the question,
“What do you do when your whole life for the past 23 years was focused on being a parent, and that comes to an end?”
For the first time in my life, since I was 25 years old, I was not directly responsible for the well-being of another human being. I was only truly responsible for myself. It was crazy making going through the release of the parenting mode I had lived in for years and years, and it was about a 2 year process to come to terms with.
So, I started thinking about what I want to do, what I want to have, and who I want to be…
It is not so much a midlife crisis as it is a continuation of where life was before it diverted to parenting. I loved being a parent. It was hard and stressful at times, but it was a wonderful feeling to work to be my best self and guide my children as I could to step into their lives.
Now I am slowly working into my life again. One where my children are not as intertwined with me, and I can create the life that is unfolding before me.
New beginning? Yes. Crisis, no.
I can’t wait to see where this takes me… The journey continues…
Oh, here is a picture of the car I bought… I love it.